Walking the Tightrope of Audit Quality: Five Years, Countless Files, and a Journey Beyond Work
Stepping into my sixth year in audit quality review, I often pause to reflect on what this journey has truly meant. From the outside, it may seem like a too technical, sometimes checklist-driven role – but anyone who has lived this path knows it is much more — an emotional, psychological, and at times, deeply spiritual journey.
When the Reviewer Becomes the “Villain”
There are days when the way teams debate, defend, or push back makes us feel like commercial scavengers — walking behind the audit process and picking out the leftovers in the name of “quality.”
And that perception hurts.
Because our intention is never to tear down someone’s work.
Our purpose is to protect the integrity of the audit.
Yet the moment findings affect grading or profitability, the energy shifts — eyes turn cold, voices stiffen, and the resistance becomes visible.
Even when we understand the reaction, it drains something inside.
Every File, Every Team — A New Battlefield
One of the toughest parts of this role is that nothing repeats.
No two files, teams, or issues are ever the same.
Every audit has its own:
- style
- challenge
- personality
- energy
And every time, we walk in as the ones who “point out the flaws.”
It takes strength.
It takes patience.
It takes a thick skin.
The Spiritual Weight of the Work
The fatigue is often not physical — it is spiritual.
I sometimes find myself wondering:
- “Is this a karmic cleansing?”
- “Am I carrying the negative energy of those who benefit from my work?”
- “Is the universe asking me to grow stronger?”
This role often feels like a karmic exchange.
We carry the weight of:
- teams’ mistakes
- partners’ fears
- managers’ defensiveness
- stakeholders’ pressure
And maybe each conflict, each pushback, is reshaping us — refining intuition, deepening resilience, sharpening clarity.
From Fast-Paced Systems to a Supportive Ecosystem
Having worked in large, structured audit institutions, I was accustomed to high expectations, strong processes, and intense review cycles. Stepping into my current role, I expected the same rhythm — and I found it, but with an added layer I hadn’t experienced before:
Genuine collaboration.
Here, discussions feel constructive.
Support is real.
And growth is encouraged.
The work, however, remains challenging — the pushback, the debates, the draining conversations.
Only now they don’t break me.
They upgrade me.
Each file takes me to the next version of myself.
A Journey of Growth — Beyond the Role
Audit quality is often mistaken for a watchdog function.
But for those inside it, it becomes:
- a mirror
- a test
- a transformation
- a purification
- emotional training
- a lesson in courage
Some days feel like karmic cleaning.
Some days feel like invisible battles for the firm.
Some days feel like standing alone.
But every single day, it makes me stronger, clearer, grounded, and more aligned with my truth.
Perhaps that is the real purpose of this role — far beyond grades or documentation.
Audit quality is not just about the files I review, but the person I’m becoming through each one.
If this journey is cleansing old karmas, so be it.
If it is shaping resilience for the future, I welcome it.
Because every challenge leaves me a little calmer, a little wiser, and a little more aligned with my purpose.
